December, December, I remember in December December, December, I remember in December, yeah Under the mistletoe, it's just different when I'm all alone And I miss you when it starts to snow And I don't want toys no more, I just want an open door A safe place, is my anxiety lovable? (Place) Is my body touchable? I just want to be worth it all Is that too much to ask? I thought we could make it through the winter time And the seasons calling, and the tears keep falling And it feels like no one's home And I thought we could make it to the summer time And the seasons calling, all the leaves have fallen And it feels like no one's home Smell of rosemary and thyme But your scent is better, better with mine I'm seen for the very first time Now my heart is after what should've been mine I thought we could make it through the winter time And the seasons calling, and the tears keep falling And it feels like no one's home And I thought we could make it to the summer time And the seasons calling, all the leaves have fallen And it feels like no one's home I saw our future in the winter time, yeah Sleigh bells and holly Praying together over dinner time Whole family singing carols Fa-la-la-la, la-la-la-la I thought we could make it through the winter time And the seasons calling Fa-la-la-la And the tears keep falling Fa-la-la-la And it feels like no one's home And I thought we could make it to the summer time And the seasons calling, all the leaves have fallen And it feels like no one's home I thought we could make it through the winter time And the seasons calling, and the tears keep falling And it feels like no one's home And I thought we could make it to the summer time And the seasons calling, all the leaves have fallen And it feels like no one's home Now it's two-fifths on the 25th Thinking, what did I miss? Guess I didn't make your Christmas list I pictured us with kids and all that shit Was tryna birth you a son like God did Now I'm looking for the Son to fix this Facing towards the Son like God give Crying to the Son 'cause God lives Can Santa make me good enough? Can he bring me back your touch? Can he make you grow up? 'Cause I still want your love in December Like a coat, I need your warmth in the winter I just want your love in December I just wanna love in the winter