I made myself a victim and I counted up the score I called your pill my medicine and made myself your whore I told myself I loved you and that we needed space You kill me with your silence, tie me up with grace You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight You can beg but you're never gonna bury the shame What a waste, what a waste, no we'll never escape Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss You're stuck living in your skin Till the bitter end You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss It was 3 AM and I was begging God to teach me to get high He told me ride it out, make Him proud and stare straight at the sky Now I'm stuck in this white-tiled hell Lining up in a straight jacket Yeah, I know that I said I need help This ain't help, it's a bandage Don't fix my Head You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight You can beg but you're never gonna bury the shame What a waste, what a waste, no we'll never escape Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss You're stuck living in your skin Till the bitter end You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss Loss I'm lost I failed, was this all just for nothing God, I thought I'd feel something Was this all just for nothing I can't feel a thing You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight You can beg but you're never gonna bury the shame What a waste, what a waste, no we'll never escape Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss You're stuck living in your skin Till the bitter end You can pray but you're always gonna carry the weight Yeah, you'll still be left with Still be left with loss Still be left with loss Still be left with