All this rage and this anger is just a façade Fuck, I hide behind words and in turn hide flaws Beaten, neglected, no one expected Spittin' out my heart, not soul is affected Do read all my lyrics? (Yeah) Do the fans really hear them? (Nah) 'Cause it's all in appearance (Huh) Got me scared of my feelings Did you really understand when you left for that man? How it killed all my plans for mom I don't have For mom I don't have Fuck, I'm hurting, got this Glock in my hand to my head and my trigger fingers burning What's my purpose? Go to you for my guidance, then I feel like I ain't really worth shit Was it worth it? I don't wanna feel this way I don't wanna feel this rage I don't wanna feel this pain Said I just wanna I just want to numb my pain I just want to run away I don't wanna feel this way I don't wanna feel this rage I don't wanna feel this pain Said I just wanna I just want to numb my pain I just want to run away Dad was an addict, that's why I rap all this mad shit Wrote songs all about how my dad dipped Screamed so much, every track that I rapped clipped Hands up asked God for a sequel Asked for my father, he asked for the needle Fuck all this faith and my hope in a bible Never seen this shit but all the dope and my trials Your actions and absence, lead to this blackness Because of your habits, I'm lackin' compassion My world is collapsin', all good 'cause I practice my talents Goin' off like, I'm Manson, oh well 'cause I guess life's tragic I don't wanna feel this way I don't wanna feel this rage I don't wanna feel this pain Said I just wanna I just want to numb my pain I just want to run away I don't wanna feel this way I don't wanna feel this rage I don't wanna feel this pain Said I just wanna I just want to numb my pain I just want to run away