Devil livin' inside of me, it's one too many friends that's been doubting me Is your heart filled with hate man it's gotta be Do I gotta fuckin' kill myself for y'all to notice me? Like fuck, what does it take? When I was born was it a mistake, when I was down you said it's okay You say that I'm great but I'm mentally drained I don't wanna sound like this, I don't wanna live like this So close to being done with this shit, I'm collecting my chips Too many people that's counting on me that said I gave a them reason to live I don't wanna let y'all down, but I feel like I'm stuck in the ground I just wanna make y'all proud, but honestly I just feel like I'm dying right now Will you let me fall asleep, and let me rest peacefully? Do they even care at all? Rather watch me burn and fall Cold sweats, I'm tryna hold steady Heavy chest with with that Glock ready Gotta open mouth where the barrels barrels buried Try to hold it down but I'm scared of it Life's short as a coke addict Couldn't keep me back with a straight jacket I got no pain with bad habits Rather sniff lines than to snap back Rather burn and die before they see me fall Rather close eyes and embrace the dark I don't know if I'm ready for the war I think ready just to end it all Emotions are so bottomless, the pain is just so dominant No one here to save me, cause I'm not really that prominent What I got to prove? Always helpin' others even though I always lose I never get the help I need, and don't know what I do Running through all the motions, facin' off all my problems Followed through on devotion, I never learned how to solve 'em The path I'm on I see will never change My mind and heart is in the dirt, I don't find it so strange at all