Yuh Don't wanna sound like a bitch, but fuck it, man I gotta lot of fuckin' problems, y'all won't understand And lately, my mental state been driving me fuckin' crazy If I'm being honest most of the time I'm fuckin' lazy Mostly everybody always told me that I'm selfish But honestly I can't help the fact I feel helpless If I tell the truth, I'ma piece of shit My heart is in a hundred pieces, it's been broken since a kid Teary eyes writing this letter for these days to get better Every night I'm sweating, crying feeling under the weather Deep emotions demonic thoughts think I'm losing conscious The devil telling me I'm almost out of fuckin options Only thing that keeps me going is my girlfriends face Without her, I would've killed my myself and left this place Yea I would've left this place But I'm saved for the moment, Thanks I'm dying inside From the poison in my life Am I wasting my time From these tears that I cry I'm dying inside From the poison in my life Am I wasting my time From these tears that I cry Yeah Even when I was kid, was never ready to get that call "Did everything we could, sorry that you lost your pa" Couldn't you call me a day before I received that news? Now I can't accept that statement until I see the proof No goodbyes, no final moments to witness life A fuck up like that cannot be made up with any price Alone and surrounded by voices he ain't recognize I wasn't the only one that day that didn't say goodbye But it's now it's all over, the nights are gettin' colder It fucken never lasted, I was stripped away from closure Look into my eyes and tell me to try to keep composure But I'm always losin' sight, no tellin' when my life is fuckin' over The hope, it fades, the emptiness it eats away What's left in my brain, it can't heal my pain Now that I'm always talkin to the fuckin' dead I hope it be my father that follows me 'til the end