My haunted head is filled with dead and awful things Visions and images and the feelings that they bring Heaviness and hopelessness, I focus on this feeling In my heart and how they want to tear me down until I fall apart (Fall apart) I pick myself up and realize I'm just living a dream With a mask on my face everyday is Halloween (Halloween) Born a nightmare but grew up in between My tortured soul is just a ghost in the machine (In the machine) Ego risers turn to trampolines We bounce in the dead and the spirits unclean Refreshing new purpose, we be the push by any means Shove it like a trust fall for all to see Hey look at me, I've been in situations the same as you (Same as you) It's been a nightmare, what I'm going through (Going through) I feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to do (Supposed to do) They say they understand but they don't have a clue (Have a clue) Holding my head up in times when I feel like I'm going down (Going down, down, down) I feel the weight when the pressure surmounts (Pressure surmounts) I am breaking down Under pressure, under strain Understand my mind's insane It's too much, caving in And every time feels like the end (The end) My head filled with memories of blood on my hands Things you've gotta do just to stack them bands It's a thin line between friends and loose ends Offering two cents when they truth bends K-K-Kick you and all your knuckles Pressure tightened belt buckles Poke 'em down 'til they cold on the floor See they not subtle, maggots infect my brain Now they all drowning into puddles, look what I've become Lost! (Lost) Get a grip A.K. in my hands fully equipped Try to leave me for the vultures, I adapt to it And now it's everything they owe I'm coming back for it Revenge is foolish without plans (Plans) And everything easy for you to see up in the stands (Stands) Meaning hindsight can only get your mind right (Right) Sitting back in the darkness out of sunlight (Light) Let go of the gun, right, stay in your head tight Holding my head up in times when I feel like I'm going down (Going down, down, down) I feel the weight when the pressure surmounts (Pressure surmounts) I am breaking down Under pressure, under strain Understand my mind's insane It's too much, caving in And every time feels like the end (The end) You're looking for the wrong place, I think you found it Welcome to my dark space, my medulla oblongata And like a car chase, if I'm the driver, my sanity's so far away So why bother? I've been abandoned by family So Our Father, is it your way of damning me? I feel like there's nobody understanding me Holler, nothing but enemies pulling me up underwater And they hope to take me away from my son and my daughter (Daughter) If you pray to God you better call her 'Cause I'm about to bring 'em all to slaughter There's something in my head and it keeps telling me to murder, murder, murder All my enemies and I'm starting to think maybe I oughta Nothing in my head feels right Fuck it all instead, real life I just want to know what being wrecked feels like But I cannot control it So I should not pretend I might get it right (Get it right, get it right) Holding my head up in times when I feel like I'm going down (Going down, down, down) I feel the weight when the pressure surmounts (Pressure surmounts) I am breaking down Under pressure, under strain Understand my mind's insane It's too much, caving in And every time feels like the end (The end)