I used to be filled with no doubt at all Tried to win, it's only drown to fall Everyone told me I'm bound to fall Fell in, now that's when I doubt they call Slept under bridges for months Nowhere to go, I was fucked I looked at time, so I'm stuck wit No family No money, No homies, I'm shit outta luck So what? Life is tough Tried to talk shit, but I'm off the bottle When I get sick, I turn Nosferatu Yelling ambitious, go mano y mano We can get Lit in this here McDonald's People tell me I could make it If I would switch up and give up on this horror shit Them is the same ones whom ain't never been In that padded room off of that Thorazine I can go on and on about the dark Life but I'm sleeping nights up at da park Everyone stuck a knife up in my heart Now I just stick to biting, I don't bark No one to hang when they say that chu brazy Better off by my self, I stay wit 38 I hit the streets, bitch I've never been lazy Fuck all that peace, I want cheese and da gravy So many nights I done spent on da bathroom floor With that blade to my wrist, I was glad to go Had to stop myself, my kids was at the door I don't want them to find me dead at this bowl I'm just in my mental Ain't no sentimental I'll break ya denim Nigga fuck a change I dun blacked out All I think about Is people on the net saying "Fuck the brain" Nigga fuck the fame Sick is in my brain Not a mutha fucka wanna bet on me I was living life way up on the edge They gon' probably find me dead up in the street Ain't no fucking sheep, life is over wit People dropping dead off this COVID shit Maybe I won't make it out this horror show Maybe I will end up on the floor sick So I write this letter, like sorry I had to go But then I had thoughts of my kids Waking up in the morning like "Where did my daddy go?" So I made a choice, I'ma stay And help them all out wit they grades But that's in the day Cuz when the sun goes down I stay Giving them all razorblades They know I will strike with that venom They don't want a nigga back with the voodoo Time I had to go and put one in your denim I'ma wait for them to fall down 'Cause they all sound like doodoo Thinking that you really all that But I saw that on Hulu Who knew I would see a nigga dressed up in a tutu? I am really with the rappin' but your actin' is poopoo I been tryna sit and maintain, but the Insane is CUCKOO Now we turnt up, baby Sip this shit, pass the green I'mma have to murder everybody in the game Dipped in gasoline They not really with it I'mma hit em with the Ice Cube "No Vaseline" I don't wanna be cheesy Too easy to smash your team Hard for me to see, you fadin' Brain gang Hard for me to really maintain I aim thangs I'm never comin' with the same thang I ain't finna sit and talk I go BANG BANG Pull up on you lil mothafuckas Who talk about gangbang gang I don't ever wanna see another Pair of skinny jeans in my lifetime Matter fact I'm bout to take em all back Brainsick when I write rhymes I ain't even trippin' on you niggas You're the enemy now but it's my time Adios a mothafucka Take another shot back through the pipeline In the night time, ain't nobody on my level They don't wanna meddle with the one Always fill em with the pain But I gotta maintain it some They be like "Please stop!" Better when you go out on top I'm like "Ain't nobody finna go nowhere It's just begun, lil BITCH"