did i just think it, no did i just write it down when did i lean in close enough i'd be invisible it'd be comfortable if i'd still see and hear you. i could go back to my old way i could go back to the doorway i see when the lights and the air would touch what for me i think would be too much. did i just think it or did i try saying more did i put messages in my eyes like bottles. crawling back to my old way i could go back to the doorway the light hurts my eyes and i get spent so one day you'll say "why didn't you say no."