Dear Kai, you know daddy love you right? Look Dear Kai, hope you don't think that the reason why I'm in here is cause I'm wildin' Daddy, he just lost his trial and they got me for something violent DA talkin' twenty two years, I couldn't even fuckin' tell you It was way too hard to just be honest Glass visits, told your mama not to bring you For the first three months, I couldn't let you witness daddy at the bottom You was only five, plus I brought you every single day to trial Knew that deep down I was goin' in so I would fake a smile Paparazzi flashin' at us, I know you don't understand But you still my little man Every single minute of that trial week, that I brought you out the court, the public said it's underhand I really brought you cause I didn't know if I'd see you again Mommy didn't know what to do, daddy was out on the jail Mommy started drinking more, but she hid it from you well You miss daddy, I know why, I just see it in your eyes All them little nights you cried, I can see it when you smile It hurts me to death when I look at you and I see my eyes I remember Christmas when I went in, I didn't have enough money to give you a life Daddy felt so helpless on that day that he sat up inside his cell and all he did was cry See daddy bank accounts was frozen and his accountants left him So everybody that told him they hold him down went suicide I had to call you on that phone and read you a poem cause I ain't had no dough to get you through the times I just want you to know that you the reason why I keep on fighting these powerful people in these crucial times Take care your mama, you my roller Always know that I made you a soldier, now Hush little baby, don't you cry, everything's gonna be alright Tell your mama you a soldier, that's what I told ya And if she needs ya, then hold her through the night I know daddy not there right now and you don't know why Make you wonder when I'm coming back But I promise I'll be back for my little soldier I told ya, until I'm home boy I'm finna fight I remember it was April 12th, county jail Daddy, he just wasn't there First birthday I ever missed Daddy felt alone and felt like no one's there So he shut himself down from the world and he ain't phoning in I know that it only affected you, it was nothing fair Mommy, she loved you so much, she started getting cleaned up But when you had to stay with Ashley, I know that that seems sus Even though your mama came with drama, she was always strong enough to hold you up just for the both of us I wonder how you really feelin' lately Uncle Jay is crazy, ain't he? But he loves you and he stays with you the days that I just can't be Also understand that Rico is your lil' brother I need you both to keep each other's safety Cause they gave daddy all these years Promised that I'd make it home, till the day I make it there Court case, ten years, aiin't no one can say it's fair But that's how they play 'em cards You know they don't play them fair Daddy will be always there And that's where the Rico too Daddy will be always there I know that you'll be there too All the shit I'm hearing about is dumb noise I just wanna get home to my young boys Hush little baby, don't you cry, everything's gonna be alright Tell your mama you a soldier, that's what I told ya And if she needs ya, then hold her through the night I know daddy not there right now and you don't know why Make you wonder when I'm coming back But I promise I'll be back for my little soldier I told ya, until I'm home boy I'm finna fight