Fingers yellow from the cigarette smoke Heart broke from a girl back home I dunno, six beers, this fear of growing lonely and old sets in Couple shots and it's gone Bloody knuckles and a hole in the wall Scratchy throat from singing love songs at the top of my lungs Awkward and young, caught me bein' sloppy and drunk, I regret it Still ain't even close to gettin' sober yet, the liquor tryna kill me Grip the bottle like a cobra's neck My ship is in a bottle, put the cap over the open end You locked me out the bedroom I been sleeping on the sofa bed but that was years ago Your ghost is like my only friend These days she stays trapped inside my bones and veins I wonder if I did it all again would it be different? When you yelled at me to be a better man I wish I listened And I was wrong, now I'm gone, watching from a distance I been guilty of way too many things And I've been filthy but I always did my best for you I did my best for you One shot brings your memory back One more makes me say your name Three shots and I really relax One more brings back all the pain And it's all downhill from here And it's all downhill from here, no no, no, no, no, no The tattoos on my face are fading quickly from the sun I bet you'd love to see me now, you always said that they were dumb I tried cleaning up my act a bit, you wouldn't know the half of it I haven't been wasted at the flea market for months and that's a big improvement I ripped my blue jeans and got some new ones so I didn't look so slummy at the pub I think that I've matured, I guess I needed to be hurt I guess I really needed silence so you really could be heard Damn, voice raspy, bad habits dug they claws in Burying the skeletons I kept inside the closet The bourbon and the cigarettes and Ativan I'm poppin' Got me calmer than the sea, swallowed keys keep me locked in I been guilty of way too many things And I've been filthy but I always did my best for you I did my best for you One shot brings your memory back One more makes me say your name Three shots and I really relax One more brings back all the pain And it's all downhill from here And it's all downhill from here, no no, no, no, no, no