too much drink another unreliable man the only chance I had and you say I never tried mockery and scorn stinging like smoke knowing you're abondoned lied about and betrayed age and ugliness is that an excuse drunk and afraid you lost your charme didn't have to be like this you stole it from yourself moving from somewhere to somewhere else. You've always known and always remember Then you forget you've always known I'm lying in bed and I tell him that I'm always afraid he just laughs and grins Good morning midnight a bottle of gin gloom and anger selfish and cold there is no love just living dead I know I didn't know