And I can't really describe it so I try to hide it
I used to feel moisture inside of my eyelids
I'd catch my reflection and see he was smiling
Reminds me that I'm nothing like I used to be
Now everything's so squeaky clean
Oh, what a change, those were the days
Oh, what a change, those were the days
It's what I need, it brings out the worst in me
It still makes me smile, I'm a freak inside
Oh, it still makes me smile, I'm a freak
But I'm sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor and now I'm
Sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor and
And I just need reminding, reminding what life is
Outside the asylum, inside of mind, I'll
Try and escape it, but it always finds us
And re-admits me back to where I've always been
It brings out the worst in me
It still makes me smile, I'm a freak inside
Oh, it still makes me smile, I'm a freak
But I'm sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor and now I'm
Sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor
And it goes hand in hand, my art and my pain
Nail me to the cross, leave me out in the rain
When I'm bleeding out I'll use it for paint
And hope for me I'll make something worthy again
But I'm sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor and now I'm
Sitting on this flight right now
Staring at the door and I'm just wondering how
I'll unlock it and drop it, I know that I'll be sure
That I'll finally feel something before I feel me hit the floor and now I'm
Sitting on this flight right now
