I wish I had more time to sort out all of this inside my mind I only have one day it's given at dawn and at dusk it gets taken away I can't control what I think so how can I control what I say I don't know who I am at the moment and I can't pray I can't pray for the answers anymore I only have myself to blame for losing control I've always needed something maybe I needed to be alone and I don't need to be saved I'm not saying that it's too late but way too much has changed you call it savior and I call it a learned behavior you call it the light I refuse to see and I call it the mask I've seen underneath just do and say the same thing no opinion preserved in stained glass holds more moral truth to me I only have myself to blame for losing control I still need to be saved just not by you I just need to be safe but not by you