I wish a heaven on Earth for my enemies So that hell will hurt so much more I never dream because I'm never asleep I dove headfirst in the water, and I swam too fucking deep The fire ignites the sky I never got the chance to say goodbye This has to be a terrible dream This is a defense mechanism Our minds are playing tricks on us We have left the boundaries of the observable universe I can't think, I can't cry My mind would implode, I want to disappear Debilitated; I'm sorry, I wish I waited It ended alone, not knowing why you weren't at home Apologies unheard; I live, I die by your word Apologies unheard; I live, I die by your word Apologies unheard; I live, I die by your word I walk this path alone, push further away I wish a heaven on Earth for my enemies So that hell will hurt so much more I breathed in the smoke Deeply, it tasted like death, and I smiled