I used to wake up every night at 3:33 I'd whisper to my phone what my brought me out of my sleep I'd wake up every morning wondering what it could be Turns out I'd always bitch about how shitty I am I started taking pills to help me shut my mind off I can't help but to feel that it'll never be enough I needed something stronger to kill my anxiety So I went down a rabbit hole of self destruction And now I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it I should keep it down but fuck it I just wanna scream I've been this way since I was 15 Quiet and shy with low esteem Always scared that I'll make people leave and cause a scene Fucked up and numb, I don't feel a thing I don't care what tomorrow could bring As long as I have a glass in my hand I'll be everything I hate but cannot escape I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it Heartbroken and alone I feel so far from home I'm heartbroken and alone I feel so far from home I won't make it on my own I'm all alone I feel so far from home I won't make it on my own I should keep it down but fuck it I just wanna scream I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it I'm dead So dead In my head I made my bed And now I lie in it