Ayy
Sippin' on this
Nah
I don't get into that, I kicked the habit
Look
I can't preach to you, this ain't ministry
I look how I used to glamorize it and get ashamed instantly (Ah)
You sip every day, I get it, I once had that same energy
But I can't live with no liver, plus it altered my brain chemistry
I once felt no pain physically, I was beyond numb
Almost sold deed at my condo at the Palms once (Ah)
Half-sleep in the booth until my songs done (Lito)
Attitude with my boo she wasn't fond of
Creative yet incoherent, aggravated, that was apparent
Basically chose sedation to replace all my self-awareness (Ayy)
Loaded and proud of it, codeine high, I loved it
Slowly, I discovered I was really lonely while in public (Mm)
I don't be tryna judge, I was copin' by buzzin'
Even though I think better of it, that's what a sober mind does
I hear ice rattlin', that's my styrofoam reminder
Of my chemical romance, coast to coast, buyin' drugs
Never heard of a toxic relationship, I just wrote what mine was
Hope I ain't blow your high while you pour your lines up
Do your thing
No judgement here
I don't get into that, I kicked the habit
Regretfully
Yeah, it's the regret for me
Look, I'm just workin' on a better me
Time to put away childish things and focus on my leagcy
I was a functioning addict
Now someone calls me daddy
I'm just hopin' this somethin' she never sees (For real)
Or maybe one day, she will, then I'll explain it
Hurt people hurt people, even themselves via drinkin' (Ayy)
Can't be in denial, throw in the towel or change the subject
Still got a chance at redemption, I'm ashamed of the man I wasn't
Well, I led with the truth, so I guess I'll conclude
I'll say do what you do, just don't let it do you
Lito
Hey, man, look
Just because I'm not indulgin' don't mean I don't know how to do it
I done had a, I done probably had enough for all you
You know what I'm talkin' 'bout?
Yeah
