It's Been Awhile

Staind

And 
it's been awhile 
Since I could hold my head up high 
And it's been awhile 
Since I first saw you 
And it's been awhile 
Since I could stand on my own two feet again 
And it's been awhile 
Since I could call you 

And everything I can't remember 
As fucked up as it all may seem 
The consequences that I've rendered 
I've stretched myself beyond my means 

And it's been awhile 
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted 
And it's been awhile 
Since I can say I love myself as well 
And it's been awhile 
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I alwyas do 
And it's been awhile 
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you 

And everything I can't remember 
As fucked up as it all may seem 
The consequences that I've rendered 
I've gone and fucked things up again 

Why must I feel this way? 
Just make this go away 
Just one more peaceful day! 

And it's been awhile 
Since I could look at myself straight 
And it's been awhile 
Since I said I'm sorry 
And it's been awhile 
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face 
And it's been awhile 
But I can still remember just the way you taste 

And everything I can't remember 
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me 
I cannot blame this on my father 
He did the best he could for me 

And it's been awhile 
Since I could hold my head up high 
And it's been awhile 
Since I said I'm sorry