I keep telling myself its just not in my hands (this seems outta my hand man) For losing you slowly was just not in my plan (this wasn't supposed to happen like this) I look to the sky sometimes, just hoping you're there (i don't think shes coming back this time) hoping you're there (not this time) Every time i pick up a pen, It's all you And there beside me in my mirror, all i can see Is us two, The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do, your words, they bleed through your words, they bleed through Get back in my arms, they're just hanging by my side Losing hold of you has left me dry Tell me where you run to where do you hide? You know you never once left my mind Tell yourself i'm sorry for the things that i've done Tell yourself you've never seen the barrel of that gun Tell yourself it's over now and not to run Just tell yourself i'm sorry for what i've done 'Cause every time i pick up a pen, It's all you And there beside me In my mirror, all i can see Is us two, The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do, The words, they bleed through Listen while i'm talking, I don't do it to much I can't help feeling that came between us What ever happened to the way that it was? The one thing i can't have Is what i want... Who decided its gonna end up this way? Who decided that you could not stay? You want be here by the end of my day, Cuz i can't even listen to the words i say But Every time i pick up a pen, It's still you And there beside me In my mirror, all i can see Is us two, The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do, The words, they bleed through I swear you never really miss it till its half gone And you tighten up your grip trying to hold on Didn't really appreciate it when its In your arms And you can relate to every word in your song Like was i wrong? butI know i'm right But in hindsight, i blame the limelight Maybe i just needed time to get my mind right Maybe we'll reconnect when the times right I'm trying to think about the causes Was i too bossy exactly what the cause is I was told to step in love with some caution Cuz love and shit is no difference in the darkness But love is where the heart is And you can see the blood as It's dripping through the gauzes So i guess i fell out of love whit her smile and more in love with applauses It's quiet in my house, your silence is my home, And everything reminds me, that i am all alone It's quite where you used to be, and now that you're gone It's not a sound, not a word, but a dial tone Its quiet when i'm drinking Its quiet when i smoke Its ..... when i'm eating, oh and i sleep all alone Its quiet now, it was louder then, i stand still like a stone Only from my dreams you want go Every time i pick up a pen, It's all you And there beside me In my mirror, all i can see Is us two, The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do, The words, they bleed through How did i get in this predicament? Was i Influenced by the benefits ? Cuz i was hitting on so many chicks, Loving you and Eaving you was the only sentiment But i Guess i wasn't ready for you Cuz i'm ubbing your feet, cooking spaghetti for you Taking you to parks, winning teddies for you But in my heart i'm thinking there's someone better for you But my hearts like "no, not this again, Cut it out black, you know how this'll end." And i swear that i really was listening But my __ was yelling and my heart was just whispering So you know who I listened to Now my hearts bitching cuz he's missing you Got my eyes staring at some old flicks of you And my nose swear that he still smells the scent of you And my soul's saying "damn, she was meant for you." And my soul's saying "damn, she was meant for you." And my soul's saying "damn, she was meant for you." And my soul's saying "damn, she was meant for you." Why won't come back I'm losing part of myself I've been wondering, watching, Waiting so long I've been talking i been listening I've been writing my songs I've been hoping you've been Hearing on this radio now, That i'm not with you But i miss you