Verse:
Yo I was called a called a troubled youth from the courts
Before the folks divorced I used to [?] off the porch
With nickels and dimes [?]
Spend my nights creeping through your backyard while you sleep
Tryna’ take peek through your window vandalizing shit
Smoking window thinking yo I’m so discrete
With dirty [?] on my feet
Heartless in the summer heat tryna’ catch [?] on your street
With tags [?] cops knocking on my door
Had me tripping with sweat dripping out of every [?]
I used to call [?] for legal advice
I heard Wesley used to bone a bitch named Valerie Spice
I used to hate on everything except for rap and weed
My momma used to tell me I was a different type of breed
I can’t the foolish shit I did as a kid
I can never justify the shit that I did
Hook:
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
And say what a fool, what a fool I’ve been
Verse:
Yo high school sucked
I was a loner and a stoner
With a [?] for disorder
Couldn’t get across border
Dropped down grade 9 as my anger inclined
Something was infecting my mind constantly to remind
Me not to be like my old man with bottle in hand
Go sniff another gram goddamn I don’t understand
But I got smarter every year
Selling rock in starter year
The pipe almost gave me death in both fucking years
I always thought that being cool was so damn important
[?] that everybody else thought that I couldn’t afford
With hand me down jeans, no hope and shattered dreams
Violent scenes, my mother screams, eating fucking beans
Nobody means to make mistakes in their lives
But without fucking up a couple times how you gon’ do right
Like the way that shit turned out for me the way that it did
Flipping my lid I ain’t gotta’ justify the shit that I did
Hook:
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
And say what a fool, what a fool I’ve been
