This song is about goin crazy Losin your fuckin mind Stayin out too many days at a time Yeah I'm starin down a dark tunnel and I can't see the light Rats crawlin everywhere, you know how they be at night I got a gun in my hand, and I gotta squeeze it tight I'm tryin to get out of here, no one said it's easy right? My stomach is queasy like, I got a fuckin lump in my throat More than a decade, I'm searchin and I'm huntin for hope Soakin in alcohol, smokin usin somethin to cope But how much water can you bail from your boat, 'fore it sinks? My hijinks, made my eyes chink, pink from the lye stink Pockets broke made want to rob things Fuck this rap shit! My city's full of suicide kings So from here on, this is now a do or die thing I got a baby on the way, mad bills to pay But I took too many God damn pills today And I can't get out of this haze, out of my bed Can't get these sick thoughts outta my head - I'm goin crazy I don't wanna talk shit, but this weed in my pocket Is makin me crazy, just get me a straight-jacket and lock it I'm fueled like a rocket, the topic of conversation Is I'm a little "Insane in the Brain", and I can spark it Like a suicide bomber, homey I'm ready to bomb it Adrenaline takin over, think I'm gonna vomit But I can promise you one thing, I walk it like I talk it If I shoot a comet at you better hope that you can duck it Fuck it, I'm annoyed with some of these shitty rappers Tryin to turn the fuckin lights out just call me The Clapper Cause homeboy is a poser, takin it so far I put you on the corner where most of my hoes are, and You can make money for daddy, just don't be mad at me But this is what happens any time you throw a jab at me You can take a stab at me, and really get peeled maybe It's time to put you away, homey I'm still crazy Lord forgive me I'm surrounded by sin, insects crawlin under my skin Demons knockin at the door of my mind, I feel like lettin 'em in What you call drug dependency I call settin a trend I was always into drugs, just nobody caught me I learned it from the best teachers, my family taught me I got knocked went to trial, guess what that bought me? The aura of invincibility, you can't stop me My great grandfather was a doctor, his son was a doctor Soon as I found pussy, I wanted to play doctor~! In my middle school locker I had a bottle of vodka Took a shot at lunchtime, sprayed my breath with Binaca I'm no psycho, my sheet says I'm a sociopath I enjoy prescription pills and blowin that grass What you callin big cash, I would throw in the stash That weed you saying's exotic I throw in the trash I got nothin to live for except a 40 cal slug Waitin up in the barrel I can take it in the mug Everybody hates Jay, that don't faze me I never learned karate, but I know crazy