This is Dr. Nick Forest
Todays date is October twenty second
And we are continuing
Evan's outpatient treatment
Following discharge
Hey Evan
How are you
How's your week been lately
Tell me what is new
Fuck you
Ok
Why
I don't really know
But I don't wanna be here
I get it
But to stay out of the ward
Outpatient completion is needed
So let's make some effort
You really wanna talk Doc
Ok
Education is an inconvenience
Especially when already an evil genius
Yeah I walk through life
Holding hands with demons
Everyone I ever see
I wanna stop from breathing
My roomate
Prevented me from ever sleeping
He would snore all night
I would want crack pipe
Might as well right
Cause with all of his snoring
And group early morning
I ain't sleepin anyways
Been out the ward for a month
So I assumed
I would start loving my life
I assumed I would stop
Cutting wrists with the knife
I assumed I would stop
Having terrors at night
Call it wishful thinking
Cause all I wanna do is
Increase the creeping
I blackout mixing all these pills
With drinking
I over think
Plus my neighbor's telling me
My basement stinking
Evan I know
I understand life since the ward
Has been tough
But just think about
All of the progress you've made
You used to cut every day
Now it's once in a month
I would say that's a little success
But tell me
How are you dealing with stress
Are taking the meds I prescribed
Or just self medicating instead
Uhh
Well Doc
Kinda funny you asked
I'm high as fuck right now
With a pill in my ass
When I use like that
I get high real fast
So the longer it's in
Is the longer it lasts
What a blast right
Forget it
I know they wanna see me committed
Stop acting
Like I got a fucking best friend Nick
When I thought I had a friend
I didn't
I just wanna get throats slit
I just wanna carve real nice
I wanna dig all in their organs
Murder for me keeps me focused
Body parts sorted
Organizations important
Limbs in the bins
I keep groping
Rub with lotion
I gotta throw the extras in the ocean
I'm a straight killer
I admit it
The Roger murders
I did it
I left the ward violently
Then I took myself a long drive
To commit a crime you see
A family made up of three
I found them with ease
Their bodies were mine to be
I started off looking in windows
Stalking excites me
I love invasion of privacy
Yeah Toya was combing her hair
I just started to stare
I was tryna peek
And see
The titties she grew in a week
She was heading to college
So I had to teach
Mr. Roger would talk about his family
Like you're doing with me
Every couple of meets
You shouldn't though
You know I'm crazy Nick
Been thinking about your relationship
A loyal wife
That raised the kids
Their college paid
What a way to live
I know you have a daughter and son
Your daughters off to college
I bet that's fun
She's what like
Twenty two
I bet your hating how fast she grew
I bet you hate she has big boobs
I bet she's real good with the dudes
I bet she never pays for booze
I bet she's eating dick like food
Aww
Oh no
What's the matter Nick
You looking like you just saw a ghost
Don't stress out now
You gotta keep your head afloat
Cause tonight I'll invade your home
You gotta save your own
Yeah a kings gotta keep his throne
You gon learn
There's no killing me
I'm on a killing spree
And Doc your the next to see
My right nightstands
Where your head will be
You bought a crib in the Hamptons right?
Only twenty minutes from the office
Tight
Man you're like the shit now
Wouldn't it suck
If your spleen got ripped out
Damn Nick
You're looking like you need a cig
Wow
Take a sip of water
And chill out
You still got like
Seven more hours to live
You should really be spending
This time with your kids
Anyways Doc
Are you happy we talked
Because if not I could
Ok ok that's enough
The statements
You have just made to me
Are very disturbing
I'm not sure if this is a way
You express yourself
Or if these threats are serious
But you know I have to report
Any harmful threats
Especially ones towards
Me and my family
If this is the case
Then our session today
Has come to an end
No Doc
Of course these are just
Empty threats
My old psychiatrist
Dr. Roger
Back in Wisconsin told me
That saying my urges out loud
Was a healthy way to manage them
So I don't have to kill
But with him and his family
Being murdered
Just a few weeks ago
I'm feeling overwhelmed with emotion
Which is essentially causing me
To lash out verbally
But don't worry Doc
I'm not gonna hurt you
I'm not gonna hurt your family
And most importantly
I'm not gonna hurt anyone else
I promise
