A mother who is loving
Is a boys best friend
Until that mother
Finds another friend
To spend life with
It's kind of tough
Because it's not a choice
That you get to make
But no matter how you feel
You gotta just live with
Your mommas boyfriend
Seemed to be
A real cool guy at the start
He use to always bring a gift
When he would get out the car
Sometimes a game
Sometimes a ball
Sometimes some trading cards
He used to tell your momma
Lighten up you're being to hard
But you got older
He got drunker
Mom was so deep in love
They finally tied the not forever
But that wasn't enough
The first time that it ever happened
You were late for the bus
He so was pissed he had to drive
Instead of catching a buzz
Once he left and start driving
He just switched it all up
He said to lift up both of your arms
Then punched you right in the gut
He grabbed your neck and said
You're dead
If you ever miss it again
Yeah he was swerving
You was pleading
So he did it again
You almost puked but if you did
You knew he'd kill you right then
Yeah he could smell the fear off you
All you could smell was the gin
You thought the gin must be the reason
Why his temper is thin
You went to school and brushed it off
But you could not hold it in
Your head was racing
Tryna figure out how all this just happened
You never saw him act like this
You were surprised by his actions
You tried to tell yourself
It's cool
Yeah it won't happen again
But you've been wrong so many times
So what's the difference with this
Your teacher asked you what was wrong
But you just lied and said nothing
I guess she knew that you were bluffing
So she called mommas husband
She started saying
You've been quiet
And been distant all subjects
And that you wasn't quite yourself
Plus you was holding your stomach
So when you got back home from school
You figured you was in trouble
But you would never start guess
You'd be involved in a scuffle
Yeah you would never think
Your mom would end up
Beat for your actions
But I assume that's just what happens
When you piss off an addict
You were small
But did your best
But you and mom couldn't match it
Yeah he was drunker than this morning
Which is why he was laughing
He was having fun abusing
He was hella ecstatic
Your mom was bloodier than you
This fuckin family's tragic
Overtime it never stopped
You called it routine practice
So your momma started gambling
To try and just mask it
All the pain
All the abuse
She knew she'd be in a casket
Both your lives forever changed
Way worse than you could imagine
Yeah this shit went on for years
Until you finally just had it
You use to plot inside your room
You hated him with a passion
Fantasizing bout revenge
That would be so everlasting
You'd say the same words everyday
Cause you would never get past it
He touch me one more time
I'll beat his skull till I smash it
Wrap his body up in plastic
Then just dump it in acid
Those were thoughts you always had
Yeah you would sit and imagine
Maybe someday is the day
You grab a gun and just blast him
Settle down
Momma please don't worry
Pray to God
Cause He knows what's going on
If we leave
I know that he can't hurt us
Be strong momma
Please keep holding on
You say we gotta stay
But I don't believe you
I'd run away
But I can't leave you alone
With him
Because he's gon kill you
So I just gotta do this on my own
You're forty two
And you just been through it all
Drug addiction
Two divorces
Kids that don't even call
But then you met the woman of your dreams
That never once judged you
It was the life you always wanted
Even way back in high school
So you met her only son
And was excited to raise him
Cause his father never wanted to
So you could replace him
Things were great a couple years
But habits never do die
You started drinking more and more
Was getting harder to hide
But she would look the other way
Cause you would work and provide
A decent life for both her son and her
With bread on the side
But lately she been kind of distant
Focused more on her son
So you've been drinking more and more
Until it ain't even fun
A strong addiction mixed with anger
Causes shit to go bad
You're now confused
On why you hate the son
That you never had
He's getting older
Growing bigger
Soon he'll be a grown man
So you start to roughing up the kid
To show him how to use hands
But when you drink your more aggressive
Plus your sending a message
It's out of love
Don't over stress it
You're just teaching a lesson
He needs a father figure
In his life
Through his adolescence
Your just a good ass fucking dude
You always give him your presence
But today he missed the bus again
That's twice in a week
You notice that he's getting lazy
Thinking life is just sweet
His mother coddles him
So you believe she's raising him weak
Yeah you're the only man he has
So man you gotta teach
You finally snapped
And took your anger issues right out on him
You punched him over and again
Cause you love feeling the sin
You know with every strike you make
It brings you back as a kid
Just like your father did to you
When you were being a shit
But now the more you think of it
The more you get yourself pissed
You went from slappin across the head
To quickly closing your fist
You start to get used to the thrill
So this shit goes on for years
But now he's getting to the point
Where he's not starting to fear
Your wifey hates you but you tell her
That you'll kill if she leaves
So now you feel the pressure from her son
At night while you sleep
So one day your just drinking heavy
Watching tv on Sunday
Your wife is visiting her mom
But your at home with her son
You start to hear him down the stairs
But you don't think nothing of it
But then you look and see his hand
And that he's holding your gun
You ask him whered he get your weapon
He's says right where you left it
He's got some tears all in his eyes
But he's not sad
He's aggressive
He tells you lift your fucking arms
Then puts the gun to your stomach
He starts repeating all the times
You left him bloody and busted
He tells you everything you know is true
Now you start to plead
He hits your mouth with half the barrel
Now you're starting to bleed
He takes a swig from out your bottle
Lifts you off of your seat
He tells you this is where it ends
Then sets you down on your knees
He says you never were a father
You were just a disease
He puts the gun inside your mouth
And says the bus gonna leave
He says don't worry you won't miss it
Cause you're good with instruction
He says now look into the mirror
By the wall where your lunch is
Staring at yourself
Regretting all bruises and punches
That you laid down on the boy
Way back since he was a munchkin
Now he tells you say goodbye
Before you turn into nothing
Then he says
Now wave goodbye
To mammas piece of shit husband
So you wave but then you realize
You were never a husband
Yeah you never a father
Yeah you amounted to nothing
No this boy isn't a bitch
You realize you were the bitch
Yeah this boy would never hit
It was just you that would hit
You finally came to realize now
That it was you that was sick
But before you can admit
You hear your own gun click
Settle down
Momma please don't worry
Pray to God
Cause He knows what's going on
If we leave
I know that he can't hurt us
Be strong momma
Please keep holding on
You say we gotta stay
But I don't believe you
I'd run away
But I can't leave you alone
With him
Because he's gon kill you
So I just gotta do this on my own
