Look at me for a second No, seriously, look at me Honestly, ask yourself this Lookin at me, do you really think that there is any way possible for you to embarrass me? Look at me! Do you really think I care what you think? Do you really think I care what you say? Look at me! I'm embarrased by my past actions and even more ashamed Of my present thoughts and future endeavors to clear my name I'm embarrassed, I'm embarrassing, I'm an embarrassment, and it's all addin' up I'm so preoccupied with self indulgence to see What you provided me, I fully appreciate your offerings And the awful things in are lessened By lessons of self-acceptance I want blessings And I regret keeping a distance For future reference over bridges are preventable, I know the traps Humanity as a whole will collapse, now close the gaps We dwell on what we share, and what separates us We're all different, but what makes us a unit? Music is a universal language; so is anguish, pain, and torment Balance of emotions, it shows a happiness upon us No more pickin' sides, one without the other is impossible (Uhh, forgot what I was supposed to say) They call it bi-polar, unstable conditions, they got me lookin' over my shoulder The book that I wrote ya', was meant to move the time slower But it was spent cookin' my mind's motor, now I'm older Yeah, it was in the cards that I'm to be forever haunted Hip hop is slowly but surely becoming the Big Brother I never wanted homie to hurt me, purely to mic Still my head is astonished with Sonics and Stetics Poetics and knowledge and polished rhetoric Everything has its negative Conscience consciously edit Constantly get rid of the rigorous repetitive movements Been better than you since... It's easier to talk to you about it than to do it Here I am, center of the spotlight They all drunk and smilin', waiting for their cockfight "Time to entertain" says the clock of life So I became the freaky kid I'm starin' at, even though you know it's not right Embarrassment, it's in between insecurity and arrogance I'm a machine with a clarity I can barely grip So if I seem red in the face, it's not 'cause I feel out of place It's just that And I can yell all day, all night, all day And I still doubt that you would hear a word I say And I can drive all night, all day, all night But if you stay with me, you'll never get it right I was never much for the self-driven skepticism I was that cat that let distraction affect my vision You were the kitten that was screaming to Cover up the sound of landing or crashing, however it was going down, But it's goin' down and it's goin' fast And I have no doubts about whether or not it's gonna last Fill the glass, tilt your head back Let it trickle through the throat to where you hide your giggles and your laughs I'll wait to find the correct departure time Shine my eyes to keep the lies from climbin' up inside my mind Some belong to you, and some belong to me, But none of them can escape the contemplation necessary You can't scare me, but you can keep it buried Put your hands on the circle; try to steer me And now that I sing all of my songs worth singing, I'm guessing that it's just a test to see how strong I can bring it.