Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Dad he grew up a bastard son Mama walked through Alaskan snow Dad he grew through his acts of love Mama's heart always had its holes When they met it was Christmas Eve 3 days later he had proposed Pain and love became apropos I was nine when I stacked the bones Standing by while the roses wilt Not my choice, how I'm supposed to feel? I got voids only prose can fill Back when my wall was poster-filled Back when talks weren't a voice-less hell Back when life was an oyster shell Soaked in guilt but still so concealed Hoist the sails or destroy myself Family tree where I found my stems They tend to judge from the outside in Make em proud pull my insides out This one's for you two I count my gifts Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong I know it's hard to to take another step when you carry doubt Parents found a way to make it heaven in a barren town Grew a garden from the dirt to watch 'em as they tear it out Home is where the heart is not a product of its whereabouts Father made me listen to the wisdom I would cherish now Hard to pay attention to the windows I was staring out Called out of classes just so I could see a therapist Advice sounded right at the time it's generic now Every night a fight has been the pattern since the marriage vows Didn't wanna end up in that pattern I was scared to miss Elusive with excuses super glued 'em to a pair of lips Hard to catch my breath ever since when I air it out I got more bruises and regrets than I care to count Little boy hiding from the noise like a caracal A dozen burning horses go around in a carousel Dozen burning horses go around Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong Can not forget it I was young Can't count on winning But I was strong