Rehab represents various concoctions of what is real And what lies beyond the blood of the cerebellum and reality We find that we are only existing in an illusion of time and space For all the human mind can conjure is what we see before our eyes But we know that one thing is true, THIS IS ALL REAL! Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising My mentality is reality, actually fantasy Can you tell that I hate me, make me know Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please Making incisions in my head to find my brain and see who's talking to me Opening my chest and put my heart to rest, now who can do me Better than insanity, granted be the only thing that's handed down to me Synthetic visions keep me busy, is he okay? Breathin' that way Sucking exhaust looking lost, seeming blue, and turning gray A chemically dependent schizophrenic, retard patient living in withdrawals Making spirit calls on prescription medication, no persuasion to serenity Finding peace in mine melodically, she keep yourself through isolation All else becomes a seizure searching for help and euphoria Mentally calling Gloria, her syringe fucking me until I bleed My progressive girlfriend, I burn and soak her up and shoot her through my veins Keep her warm, rub her eyes, wipe her nose when it drains Squeeze it tight, hold my breath Slap her hard before we kiss, she's in my blood I swear to God she leaves I'll cut my wrists Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising My mentality is reality, actually fantasy Can you tell that I hate me, make me know Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please Bloodstream half barbiturates, half amphetamines Laugh and hide the cry by any means, pack paraphernalia Daily delusions, I'm using the beast within The light's on but no ones home in my dome Trickery seed, my ticker it speeds uncontrollably, let it be the remedy I'm dead already, remember me tenderly Might as well dress for Hell, bells ring like churches On sunny Sundays, I've gone the wrong way on a one way And purchased that mental peril by the pound Fuck the next square on the calendar I'm out on a limb with sin Shit's grim, hit dim sight so fuck it Wired up and worthless Tired of paranoia, nervous Yesterday, tomorrow the trigger forever I could of never have been better I sit and shake and self-destruct For what, tell mom I'm nuts I chose bad luck, struck rock bottom Cocked the shotty... Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising My mentality is reality, actually fantasy Can you tell that I hate me, make me know Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please Alone in my apartment, bad company How many years it's been I been composing blues symphonies Not to mention the entities that levitate around my neural programming I wear the dark halo, solo like silos, the deep steelo what I feel though While wind covering, my skin graphs is in a raft I'm crying when I laugh, oh he have Inherited the Earth, why don't the angels sing Living what is thing, if I'm going to hell what should I bring Ruthless like Ming dynasty, the woman's work is never done I put a bullet in the flying nun age of reason Rage is found, cohesion, conversations with Sandman Talking to myself as always Sick dialog see captain's log, you can't log on The encryption codes to my madness lie somewhere in the blueprints of the museum of sadness How irrational seems happiness, keep my misery personal I wouldn't wanna complicate our superficial rituals naw... Self esteem on E, mean mugs, I see confusion bruising My mentality is reality actually fantasy Can you tell that I hate me, make me know Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please Self esteem on E, Demon's I see confusing Bruising My mentality is reality actually fantasy Can you tell that I hate me, make me know Let me see me the way that I should be, please, please, please Please...