Onara ga hazukashiku natta no wa itsu kara darou Namida kakusu you ni natta no wa itsu kara darou Uso o tsukeru you ni natta no wa itsu kara darou Hadaka ga hazukashiku natta no wa itsu kara darou Sou yatte mamorinuita kono boku mo Kekkyoku saigo wa kiete shimau noni Okane ga hoshiku natta no wa itsu kara darou Hito ga urayamashiku natta no wa itsu kara darou Dare ka o kirai ni natta no wa itsu kara darou Mienai mono made hoshiku natta no wa itsu kara darou Sou yatte te ni ireta mono mo subete Kekkyoku motte nado ikenai noni Dakara semete ima wa motte ikou Ryoute ni dekiru dake motte okou Sono kazu ga kitto boku no koto Oshiete kureru ki ga suru kara Yoru nemure naku natta no wa itsu kara darou Ano hoshi no ibasho o shitta no wa itsu dattarou Kodomo kara otona ni natta no wa itsu nan darou Itsuka boku mo kieru to shitta no wa itsu dattarou Kataru omoide ga dekita no wa itsu kara darou Mu kuse nai mono ga dekita no wa itsu kara darou Nidoto 'ima' wa ko nai to shitta no wa itsu kara darou Shiranai koto ga aru to shitta no wa itsu dattarou Sou yatte te ni ireta ikutsu mo no nani ka o Nokoshite boku wa kieyuku kedo Dakara semete ima wa motte ikou Kakaekire nai hodo motte okou Sono subete ga ima no kono boku o Katachizukutte iru mono dakara Sono subete ga ima koko ni boku ga Sonzai shita koto no akashi dakara オナラが恥ずかしくなったのはいつからだろう 涙隠すようになったのはいつからだろう 嘘をつけるようになったのはいつからだろう 裸が恥ずかしくなったのはいつからだろう そうやって守りぬいたこの僕も 結局最後は消えてしまうのに お金が欲しくなったのはいつからだろう 他人が羨ましくなったのはいつからだろう 誰かを嫌いになったのはいつからだろう 見えないものまで欲しくなったのはいつからだろう そうやって手に入れたものもすべて 結局持ってなど逝けないのに だから せめて今は持って行こう 両手にできるだけ持っておこう その数がきっと 僕のこと 教えてくれる気がするから 夜眠れなくなったのはいつからだろう あの星の居場所を知ったのはいつだったろう 子供から大人になったのはいつなんだろう いつか僕も消えると知ったのはいつだったろう 語る想い出ができたのはいつからだろう 無くせないものができたのはいつからだろう 二度と「今」は来ないと知ったのはいつからだろう 知らないことがあると知ったのはいつだったろう そうやって手にいれた いくつもの何かを 遺して僕は消えゆくけど だからせめて今は持って行こう 抱えきれないほど持っておこう そのすべてが今のこの僕を 形作っているものだから そのすべてが 今ここに僕が 存在したことの証だから Since when did I felt embarrassed when every time I fart Since when did I started hiding tears in public Since when did I learned how to tell lies to others Since when did I felt embarrassed when I got naked All those work I've done to hide them from others, but I'm just gonna be gone from this world at the end Since when did I started wanting money more than I have Since when I started envying others Since when did I start hating on some people Since when did I started wanting stuff that you can't have All those things that I've seen it and wanted Would just be a dream, and won't be having them That is why you shall be having all of those things, as much as you can hold it with both hands And the quantity of the stuffs that I'm holding right now, is probably me right now Since when did I felt not sleepy at some nights Since when did I learned where the start is Since when did I started to change form kid to adult Since when did I learned that I would be gone from this world Since when did I got a such a tight memory Since when did I found something that I can't hide Since when did I learned I can never be back to "now" Since when did I learned that there are things that I don't know All those work that I've done to earn all those things Will be left and I'll be gone from this world That is why you shall be having all of those things, more than much as you can hold And all those things are stuffs that are shaping you into person And all those things you're holding will the proofs that you existed