I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way Way back to you (Yeah) I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way Way back to you Uh, yeah Certain things that I went through take a toll on me mentally (Take a toll on me mentally) I let go of everyone I love, but hold onto the memories (I hold onto the memories) I don't wanna have to take the blame for the things that I didn't do (Take the blame for the things that I didn't do) But I don't wanna take responsibility for all that I did to you (Yeah) I'm in my thoughts in too deep, can't turn back now Stubborn and selfish, yeah, I know, hard for me to back down Hidin' my smile, pourin' my emotions in a red cup Hate that I feel so deep, hate that I think to much Tryna heal myself the same way I've lost myself (Lost myself) Why I feel the more I try the more I'm not myself? Maybe my head don't work, maybe the meds don't work I wanna feel numb, maybe I'd rather be dead Dead don't hurt (Dead don't hurt) I'm tryin', (And without you right here, my heart is frozen) I'm tryin' (Like everything I touch ends up broken, yeah) to find a way (Me, I'm still searchin', yeah) Way back to you (Me, I'm still) I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way Way back to you