heartbroken, i watched the rain beat on the sidewalk. complete with grey skies and headlights and puddles on the sidewalk, everybody's ruined like me... it's weird now, when i look back. each day spent careful is still consumed over time. i think it's worse to be aware and know this change than to go on every day unknowing... i'm having trouble with realizations. why does it have to be a regretful mess. if i could have one day back now, i swear i'd use it well... oh 13, where did you go? you're gone when i needed you the most. i know that from here it's downhill. make the best of a slow death. people change, yeah. and that can never be good. i liked it that way, why did you stray? maybe i'm unhealthy. oh won't you stop and stay frozen in time with me...