You know just how to brew your coffee so Every flavor shows its teeth You take your time with each section of my spine, babe You really know just how to please And you're meticulous with every grocery list You've got a garden growing green I smile silently You're staring back at me and say Tell me what you're thinkin for a penny But I don't want to tell you why I don't cry anymore How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor I buy precooked rice And I'm not that nice to myself I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while Let's keep our lips busy Get a little dizzier Blurring this illusion that I built for you Don't shatter it now You get up early, you go on runs 6 miles through the city just for fun You revel in the stillness of the morning Invite me to the desert without any sort of warning I take my pills at 11 Get out of bed at quarter til Can't seem to find where I've misplaced my piece of mind but Believe it or not this is how I heal But I don't want to tell you why I don't cry anymore How many nights I've spent clutching my knees against the floor I buy precooked rice And I'm not that nice to myself I don't wanna show you what it's like behind my smile So I'll just keep my thoughts at bay and kiss you for a while Let's keep our lips busy Get a little dizzier Blurring this illusion that I built for you Don't shatter it now You can buy me jade, we can hope it grows but Today I'm still too petrified to genuinely show you who I am But I'll eat your homemade jam Don't wanna cry for you, won't open up that door So I'll just get my things and drive away just like before I'll try to keep myself busy Stop getting dizzy I'll Hide behind this cold, aloof illusion So for the sake of settling confusion It's over now It's over now