I saw you in the corner with a loaded gun I told you that I loved you and all you said was run You put one in the ceiling as you cried my name A second chance glance felt like Novocaine But if I called your bluff You'd say I'm no fun But this ain't the first time you've tried to hurt someone I'm just glad that it ain't you Choking down a red inside a crowded room It's heater after heater till my lungs are black and blue Biting on my cheek so I can taste some blood It's fine I swear it's fine I'm finally doin' what I want But this ain't the first time I've tried to hurt someone I'm just glad that it ain't you Watch a scary movie with the volume down When I seen you try to scream, you didn't seem to make a sound And it's quiet A little too quiet now What the hell have I become? I wanna look back and be proud of all that I've done I wanna be a better lover I wanna be a better son I wanna feel my skin burn as I stand in the sun I wanna laugh I wanna cry I wanna love I wanna fly I wanna live I wanna die I wanna live I wanna live I wanna live I wanna live I wanna live "I don't think this town has ever seen anything like this"