I been painting me a picture Reading from the Scripture But I been drinking by the pitcher And I been praying for forgiveness But all the shady business And all the crazy news I witnessed It made me callous, made me jealous, mad mad I see the future for the children and it's sad sad Humility is nothing but truth And my pride is just a lie living under this roof I fell in love with not loving myself no Run that back, I admit it, needed the help Shit, we all need it Can't even walk in my own shoes now, defeated Clever? I don't know, maybe Stringing together fancy words to sound cool It won't save, huh? Why? 'Cause I'm somebody's baby I realize looking through these real eyes It ain't about the blood, it's who I cut with my real knife Yeah it's real life and I just wanna feel right I never dealt with the devil, deal didn't feel right I'm so misaligned I could probably be [?] And [?] pill tight take it with a [?] I lost the power to keep my will right, damn See I been painting me a picture Reading from the Scripture But I been drinking by the pitcher And I been praying for forgiveness But all the shady business And all the crazy news I witnessed It made me callous, made me jealous, mad mad I see the future for the children and it's sad sad Humility is nothing but truth And my pride is just a lie living under this roof It comes and goes too quick and then we die Life's a watch with wings, time flies And I been fighting all my life [?] No opponent though, I'm just fighting with myself Chasing money in a wet dream Had me running circles like I'm out here with the drag team I have no interest in your interests, like a tax lane Out here acting like a rapper, that's a wrapped scene (damn) And I don't even need a real hook to keep my lines right Fishing for the answers so I keep my lines tight Shit, I lost my mind, right? tell me when the time's right Vision 20-20 on that ass, yeah it's hindsight Way too angry for no reason I'm constant changing like the seasons And if I spring past summer I won't fall But then I'm freezing cold And I ain't doing well with getting old And I ain't doing well with staying up late searching for my soul Damn It's nearly time to go, huh Momma tried, momma tried, momma tried yes sir Oh Lord, ym momma tried And I remember the day I walked inside I walked upstairs then I seen my momma cry so I Started painting me a picture Reading from the Scripture But I been drinking by the pitcher And I been praying for forgiveness But all the shady business And all the crazy news I witnessed It made me callous, made me jealous, mad mad I see the future for the children and it's sad sad Humility is nothing but truth And my pride is just a lie living under the roof I been painting me a picture Reading from the Scripture But I been drinking by the pitcher And I been praying for forgiveness But all the shady business And all the crazy news I witnessed It made me callous, made me jealous, mad mad I see the future for the children and it's sad sad Humility is nothing but truth And my pride is just a lie living under this roof