Hey, the date is September 4th, 2020
I'm in Minturn, Colorado, alone
I'm always alone here
And I'm training to climb Mount Everest for May 2021
And I have a lot of trouble
After our climbs, we'll go out for three days
We'll go out for a week
And it's a very intimate experience climbing a mountain with somebody, sleeping under the stars
Not sexual, just intimate
And when I finish, I come back here to this condo I'm renting
And I'm just alone
And I get fucking depressed every time I come back here
And there's nobody waiting for me to come back
There's no girl
There's no family
There's no dog
This is me
And it feels very dry
I was thinking about my dad right now
I miss him
But why?

I've set my life up to be alone so much
I have that this freedom is maybe too much freedom
And there's no one here but me