Caught in the attention, the darkest depression, lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits Is this all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, let me call the shots I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops, am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know 'till I get some. Bacardi and Coke, that's redrum Oh, you think I got it made, now, guess what? Look me in my face, motherfucker, I been fed up But you thought I looked happy... Huh, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that, though Please, let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when there's something really wrong and you let it slip away This isn't just a part time thing, this is every single day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me it's okay, I'm goin' mental like a slave, and I can't ever get a say, and it's messin' with my brain They told me calm down, you need to breathe deeper Cole, it's just anxiety, you're not gonna die, can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, Ativan and Xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like... "word" I think I heard of these, though 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun when I need those Every single night I'm in a cold sweat. Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet And then I'm overthinkin' every old text, and then I show up at the hospital, it's cold again They don't even take me serious, I've been goin' crazy, period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and y'all can't even see it, and it makes me furious But that's fine, though, y'all can keep your eyes closed Then I'll consider takin' those pills that you gave me all at once, on the ride home The only reason that I won't, is for my girl and my family And my fans that'll hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me Yeah It's anxiety I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me I said it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me I look around and now it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me Yeah, it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and now it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me It might just be me...