I just got high for the first time In a long time, why the fuck I do that See it in your eyes, it makes me so sad I'm a fuck up, I'm sorry, I'm a dirt bag Hate it when you see me doing so bad Every time the phone rang you frantic like I'm toe tagged I just wanna hear that you've been proud of me I just hide from all my pain, it's so cowardly I just can't stop myself Tell you that I need it, that I want some help But I, I don't wanna live in this hell Every time you see me, it's just breaking me down, yeah Have you ever felt so empty Wanna end it all, don't tempt me Tell me that I know she wouldn't want this But I'm haunted, I disappoint you often I just got high for the first time In a long time, why the fuck I do that See it in your eyes, it makes me so sad I'm a fuck up, I'm sorry, I'm a dirt bag Hate it when you see me doing so bad Every time the phone rang you frantic like I'm toe tagged I just wanna hear that you've been proud of me I just hide from all my pain, it's so cowardly Yeah, I've been by myself for months Ain't nobody gets me I can't call my friends no more And I don't wanna do these drugs Cuz every time I do em They just made me feel alone I just got high for the first time In a long time, I said I wouldn't do it But it's useless, I keep using I feel so lost, I'm reclusive I just got high for the first time In a long time, why the fuck I do that See it in your eyes, it makes me so sad I'm a fuck up, I'm sorry, I'm a dirt bag Hate it when you see me doing so bad Every time the phone rang you frantic like I'm toe tagged I just wanna hear that you've been proud of me I just hide from all my pain, it's so cowardly