This is the first And fucking last time That I will cover for you My sunshine She catches drops Of all the water That's on her window Just like a spider And yeah my heart Is fucking empty So many holes here It rips right through me And time stands still When we're together Both you and I Stuck here forever Breakneck speeds With breakneck choices You and I Could follow through Dig myself Into a hole that's Deeper than Your root canal Saw your face Like God came back and Heals my heart We can be Like fallen angels Rise up through This killer pain Dear diary, I've been struggling with self harm again and it makes me feel lonely It's an odd feeling to live in a body you hate, and to wake up every day with [?] But I'm trying to do better To treat the people around me with respect and love Even though I don't respect and love myself To not be so angry all the time and [?] to help people I think about when I was a kid a lot, and all the things I did wrong And how those things shaped me and my future And that's a pretty cool thing, but I still feel sad a lot Breakneck speeds With breakneck choices You and I Could follow through Dig myself Into a hole that's Deeper than Your root canal Saw your face Like God came back and Heals my heart We can be Like fallen angels Rise up through This killer pain