I wouldn't want to say my friend So I'm not saying anything You say you'll fall, I'll fall lower A love letter was what I meant A bullet to the heart was sent The way my body lay here bent In the freezing exposure and frozen to colder I wouldn't want to say No, I wouldn't want to say Get out while you can Get out while you can I will bring bad luck and misery to you, man I'll paint this shadow across your land While putting something graveyard dark Straight into your hand I wouldn't want to say I wouldn't want to say My heart is black as night Black as night Black as night This barrel bomb in my brain ignites A self-aimed incendiary device Suddenly everything I ever had is on ice All those who tried to help me scattered like mice No, I wouldn't want to say I wouldn't want to say Who knows how many more years there will be Before the end of this sad machine No heirs to my disease No one else to curse with this gene Someone said it's designed for survival The one I wildly ride Swinging from death From death to revival Where I've been and what I've done No, I wouldn't want to say I wouldn't want to say The implication I am guilty Yet suffocation cannot kill me There is this ladder I am climbing In the darkness you can't find me I wouldn't want to say No, I wouldn't want to say When I was young and untrue as could be I begged like a child, come back to me Come back to me, come back to me, come back Baby, won't you please come back No, no they ain't coming back They got away however they could Like snow melting in spring Disappearing for good Rapture or apocalypse Actress or receptionist Sanctified or crucified I have always welcomed it Yeah, I have always asked for it I knew, I knew I had it coming It's alright, it's alright It's alright, it's alright It's alright I'm still hoping I'm still open Still open all night Looking for that love that's right What I loved, what I loved What I loved, it's gone away But I loved you And I always loved you How I loved you I wouldn't want to say No, I wouldn't want to say I wouldn't, I wouldn't to say I wouldn't to say It's alright, it's alright It's alright, it's alright It's alright I wouldn't want to say