I learned a lot about myself over the last few years
Like these shows I'm an asshole after a few beers
It took so long for me to get my foot in the door
Worked hard going on tour till we couldn't no more
Drive around in a minivan sleepin' on the floor
Then eventually you move up to a bus
And everything is plush
Then you become a lush
You start to wanna fuss
Fuck every girl you meet that has a crush
Your head starts getting big you become a greedy pig
Star studded diva talking like a little kid sayin
Get me dis get me dat actin like a fuckin brat
Like you don't know me what the fuck you think you're lookin at
I feel embarrassed cause I'm sittin right and lookin back
Drinkin jack heinekens and botans crooked hats
Smoke hangin outta my mouth talking shit
Obnoxious and cocky like nothing can stop me
Took a while for me to finally figure this out
I actually thought that I spit better than everyone else
To all the people in the world that I treated like shit
I'd like to pologize to them for bein' a dick
Times change I know that I'm strange
What's wrong with my brain
I'm just trying to keep it together
Asshole I was such an asshole
That was in the past though
I'm just trying to keep it together
I tried staying grounded and some people found that
I was down to earth it sounds worse than it was
But I'm the first to admit that I'm the worst when I'm buzzed
And it's unfortunate cause I was drunk for every show
Was it fun? I'll never know
I don't remember too much
But I know I love what I do so ima never give up
Anyways we all know life has it's peaks and valleys
Tryna reach my second peak that's why I'm going back to Cali
Cause I lost some momentum lifes different to me
The way I see things changed quite significantly
I'm trying to get right within I'm finally listening to me
I'll hopefully become the person that I wish I could be
Times change I know that I'm strange
What's wrong with my brain
I'm just trying to keep it together
Asshole I was such an asshole
That was in the past though
I'm just trying to keep it together
So what I'm saying is I've changed
Couldn't stand being the same
But it still seems I rub you the wrong way and you complain
People come up in the club asking me questions
If I don't have the right answers that's the lasting impression
You don't understand man that's a lotta pressure
They walk away hating if I don't make em feel special
Look you can't get to know anybody in 5 min in the club
Please don't tell me that I didn't show you love
I'm just having a drink we can talk it's no hassle
But if I don't look excited then guess who's the asshole
Then you tell all your friends that madchild's conceited
We ain't supportin him no more I guess that he don't need it
I'm not evil people I treat everyone as equal
I might've had a bad day and I'm just tryin to make a sequel
You can have your opinion it's cool I'm not suffering
But my fans and my friends and without them I'm nothing
Times change I know that I'm strange
What's wrong with my brain
I'm just trying to keep it together
Asshole I was such an asshole
That was in the past though
I'm just trying to keep it together
