Jellyonnat
I'm really rapping about what I go thru
Like, M row
Like
It's a message to whoever love me, pray for me
Always just know that I love you
Bitch, always tryna be sneaky with me so I blocked you
And won't say the reason I dubbed you
They only care if you dead or in trouble
Where the fuck you was at for my struggle?
The opps could've killed me
Numerous times, every chance when they see me, them **** just fumble
Once, twice, third, I was up close and they missed me and they threw a couple
I lost a good friend to the drugs, but I still say free Mr. flock out the sunroof
We talk, I feel like I love you way more than me
You know that you wrong, you gon' go start ignoring me
I'm looking for love everywhere, everybody I go to just always detouring me
Emotionally, drained I argue and boring me
My friends always bum me, but you not supporting me
How you been done and already moved on? And I want you to tell or think about warning me
I be thinking no way I be real will make everybody start to be direct on me
Whenever I go M.I.A, I just be by myself and nobody gon' check on me
I suffer from being alone and detached from people, that shit really get to me
How you tell me, you hope that I die and you know how I live, won't forget what she said to me
I don't go to my block cuz I'm ducking the police, they always search me, arrest me, and hold me
They don't really know how good of a nigga I am, they just feel like they know me
The way how I feel and I suffer myself, it be me in my thoughts
Tryna think I'm not lonely
When God on the right of my shoulder, My demons be there on the left hearin' closely
R.I.P Q, I lost bro to them perks, You a person that always support me
I be numb to the death, but you know that it hurts
Just save me a spot, I might be up there shortly
I was with Ross Lee's in the hospital, day after day
And bros just high off the morphine
I got knee deep in that water no chlorine
I was outside spinnin' right when I hit fourteen
Couldn't drop music for almost a year, Cause the case that I had And the judge always listen
Your honor, play all the songs in your ear, Can you see now all of my music is dissin'
I don't miss a court, I always appear the image they got is a story they twistin'
No disrespect, but I'm makin' it clear it's a real big part of my life that you missin'
All of my life, everybody just judge me, nobody be wantin' to love me
Sometimes I be needing somebody to hold me and say it's alright, and just sit there and hug me
But, they just wanna use me for money and get what they can out of me and leave from me
The knife that he used on my back when he cut me, is the one I'ma use on his face leave him bloody
