I don't deserve love, do I deserve to hurt so much at night?
Will I ever be enough? Will I ever feel good about my life?
I could open up and tell you how I feel
But I can't 'cause that would make it real
That would make it real
That would make it real
I'm drowning in the flood, anything but numb and painted white
I'm tryna find a way to finally feel okay, to feel alright
I could sober up and maybe start to heal
But I don't 'cause that would make it real
That would make it real
That would make it real
I keep my heart locked up tight
And hide the pain behind these eyes
'Cause I don't wanna make it real
Baby, I'm so tired of this self-inflicted hell
I could sober up and maybe I could learn to love myself
And heal
But I'm scared
That would make it real
That would make it real
Is a good place to start
The broken pieces of my heart?
'Cause I guess it's time to make it real
