Mother I do not want to eat my supper The world is shades of gray No color, color Can you please help me, help me, mother? And mother Please give me skin that grows in tougher I used to know the way to suffer, mother Now I can't tell winter from summer The body is wise But mine is broken Unsteady tides of my emotion They say trust yourself But how do you know when? How do you know when? How do you know? What if I fall into the abyss? What if I swing only just to miss? What if the rose looks pretty but the thorns cut me? What if I make a terrible mistake? The tunnel light could just dissipate What if the weight's so heavy I let it crush me? But what if I trust me? What if I trust me? What if I what if I trust me? Pressure I only want to make it better What if the nothing lasts forever, ever? And I give way under the pressure? Terror That I could make another error But if I trust that I'll recover, mother Then that which scares me loses power What if I fall into the abyss? What if I swing only just to miss? What if the rose looks pretty but the thorns cut me? What if I make a terrible mistake? The tunnel light could just dissipate What if the weight's so heavy I let it crush me? But what if I trust me? What if I trust me? What if I what if I trust me? I'm okay I'm okay It's okay if I don't quite believe it yet I'm okay I'm okay I'm slowly re-growing all the skin I shed Learning to trust myself again Learning to trust myself So if I fall into the abyss I guess that's just where I'm gonna live I'll stitch the wounds any time the thorns cut me And I could make a terrible mistake The tunnel light may just dissipate I'll learn to see better in the dark, honey I'll learn how to trust me What if I trust me