Not all addicts come from the streets It's crazy what some people do just to get high Just to get high, just to get high, just to get high People robbing and stealing, murdering, killing Was destined for better things but somehow turned out the villain A young boy born in a good home At the playground he would roam Mother who cared, daddy was there Church every Sunday giving the homeless his prayers Soup kitchen with his momma, he helping her feed 'em Made him feel great as a boy like these people in there really need him On the road, now we older, he the top of his class 4.2, that's what extra credit'll do But now he sees the other kids and sees a girl that he likes He's scared to talk but he might Body changing, hormones rearranging, he growing confidence Finally engaging, he asked her out Praised God like the pastors [?] she said "Yes" Couple months later fucked for the first time He's hooked like a cokehead's first line Now he in love on cloud nine This girl is everything he cares about She always on his mind, supposed to go to prom Even picked out a tux with his mom, in touch with his mom It was the day before the SAT test when he found out this bitch has been fucking his best friend He's yelling and screaming, heat of a demon His mom and dad telling him "There's many more fish in the sea" How the fuck can that be? She promised it would be me Now he slipping, he falling, feel like he can't get a grip and he tripping House party first time he hit the weed when it's passed, scotch out a flask At home he's not the same His parents don't try to ask what's going on, you never respond School called, said you're never in class You was supposed to help the homeless on Tuesday but then you passed The voice of his momma, now his house is all full of drama He don't wanna help her, they should be praying to God Let's be honest, they homeless 'cause they don't have no fuckin' job and they lazy It fuckin' amaze me, feeling crazy Suicidal, depression, no hope for a good profession Twelfth grade when he started smoking rocks out a glass, it takes the pain away Now he finally happy at last with no job to support his new habit He steal from the same church he used to help homeless with their meals Oh, how it feels for a mother to watch her baby walk around in her heels Now we addicted to a substance, she don't know how it feels She tried to save him but he's screaming back and forth with his dad, he's fuckin' had it His son has become an addict, thinking erratic This shit is beyond an invention, my intention is contention Punching his father in the living room, his mother she tried to break it up He hits her in the process, is this too much to process? His father throws him through the front door Says "You don't want no more, don't come back no more" No place to stay, it's raining harder than [?] Feeling like a nobody, just a body to put some motherfuckin' pills in Years pass, he sees the girl from his class Scared she'll recognize him but she doesn't 'cause his mass has past her Makes him feel like he in a simulation Never facing the things that brought him in this situation Met bad people, did bad things Criminal activities [?] He wants to get sober but he doesn't know how Been on the street, he's sleeping in boxes and dumpsters for a while No money for rehab, he mad trying to get clean He wanna turn his life around but it ain't easy as it seems Still falling, his skin crawling, the drugs calling, his body withdrawing Sweating through the mattress in an alley 1AM during summer in Cali He's starving, he needs a plate, what is his fate? Soup kitchen he finds himself in, he recognize the place Looks around the room and recognize the face It's his daddy, the little boy inside him is scared His father says "Even though I kicked you out, I was always there "I'm sorry for what I've done" "Yeah, I know, son. You're a human at your low, son, it's no fun I'll help you if you need it, I'll give you a home Just don't let that cycle repeat it" He said "Okay, dad, I miss you and mom. Can't wait to see her" He said "Boy, your mother's been dead for a year" He couldn't believe it Last thing he did was strike her down Spent years away as an addict and now she's underground Finally found himself but feel like it's too late to break this genetic trait Pops was there for him like Redditt Years pass, we gon' dead it He's finally clean after years in the machine Twelve months shit but the AA meetings He's finally seeing the man he always wanted to become We come from nothing, now he's got a job And a house of his own, with some crops that he's grown Vacation on a plane, first time he's ever flown Anxiety got him shaking, his fingers gripping his phone Woman beside him said "Don't worry, I get scared, you're no alone I used to have the biggest fear of flying Shaking my knee uncontrollably and silently crying" And then she said "I just let go of all control and let be of what will be and finally I am feeling free Don't get me wrong, I'm a human, still get a dose of anxiety But I'm feeling stronger than the prior me" This made him think and feel better Before they were done with ascension, they landed And found out that they were both going to the same common convention He could feel the tension inside of him like a drug He was done with Mary Jane, needed a Gwen Stacey He said "You want some company?" She said "My name is Tracey, it's nice to meet you Do you have a number where I can reach you? Maybe show you some anxiety meditation, could teach you" Felt like she was the only person that could reach through Became friends then became lovers She had a big family, two older sisters and three brothers That welcomed him in, knew his past, still loved him like kin And everybody in the family rejoiced when he asked Tracey to marry him That's when she told him she was pregnant and he rejoiced But over the months leading to the day he heard a voice In the back of his head that said his baby is doomed, genetically fucked From all the narcotics that you consumed Intrusive thoughts winning the battle But his therapist say "This is normal, this is okay, it's okay It means you care, always gon' be there for your family" Okay and now it's the day, the day Now she in labor, "God, I gotta ask a favor I know I done a lot of bad in this life Not a lot of good but I was wondering Could you let my baby and my wife have a beautiful life? I done a lot of wrong but now I'm making it right"