I couldn't sleep at all last night So I opened up my eyes, it was 3 a.m. My mind spinning around in the dark And the past just like that ceiling fan It was only one in California Fifty fifty shot she'd pick it up I stared at my phone like it was a loaded gun Said, "On second thought" I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up What it means to be in love Or if enough is ever gonna be enough Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone When I find what it is I want Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one Mama always worried but I never saw that worry fix a thing Said I'd never be like that But give me one bad day and a few good drinks There I go, rabbit hole Wondering what the hell does it all mean What really matters? Who am I? And am I where I'm supposed to be? I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up What it means to be in love Or if enough is ever gonna be enough Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone When I find what it is I want Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one Thinking 'bout how life just goes too fast Thinking 'bout all the things I can't take back Thinking 'bout, "Why am I thinking about that?" Sometimes I want to pack a U-Haul up And just leave it all and run Tell her she's the only thing I want I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up Or what it means to be in love Or if enough is ever gonna be enough Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone When I find what it is I want Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up What it means to be in love Or if enough is ever gonna be enough Wonder if I'll ever be somebody to someone When I find what it is I want Hope I'm not, I hope I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one