I took another hit Scotty just caught him a body Baso made another hit Fuck it [?] lit I'm gettin' drunk as shit Soon as I heard this shit I just started crying my eyes keep waterin' I miss my kids I bet they wonderin' where their father went Might not be man before I get to hit the park with them Livin' in the ghetto we was po' but we had fun That money got me strugglin' I don't remember none of this when I had nothin' I was bad at work I was in the closet tryna find my dad gun I don't know for sho' but I just thought that I was supposed to have one Meanwhile I'm in juvenile whole time I ain't even know I had a son You ain't told me about it I ain't even know You ain't told me about it Girl like I ain't out here wildin' why you ain't told me that I had a son Now lookin' back at shit I did like "yeah that was dumb" Girl that was dumb Some of the most stupidest stuff that a nigga did but it was all for love She wasn't my bitch but I told him said don't put his hands on that woman I tried to kill a nigga in life for tryin me and my big cousin Me and E We was just goin' to lunch Gone eat bout my boys Who [?] beef then I must indulge Livin' in the bricks he wasn't rich but I say I was spoiled 'Cause being a baby I got away with shit and I ain't do chores Mama I'm sorry for trippin' on Christmas 'cause I ain't get no toys Now that I'm a man I understand that life was really hard Droppin' bars thinkin' bout all my niggas behind the bars Nigga told on site then he died on the bike while he was gettin' charged My future bright but it's just allot of darkness in my heart I pray no smoke don't come my way cause I know ima take it way too far Ain't no forgivin' I need my vengance please forgive me Lord Lil' nigga keep beggin for my attention ima send him to you God Mama I need you to stop believing everything you see on blogs Can't nobody say the no shit about me cause I be high, way on mars Ain't fucked her in so long she want to go to court this bitch done called the lawyer Saying I'm doing her wrong I love my kids feel like they took her spot If I could do it all over I would be more selfish with my fucking time Trynna bring niggas with me who ain't even want to see me shine