My brother doin' time, but I can't cry for him Lil' cousin doin' time, but I can't cry for him I lost my cousin to the streets, but I can't cry for him My heart is breakin' every night, but I can't cry for 'em And I can't even lie, mama I can't shed a tear, I'm traumatized, mama PTSD fuckin' with my mind, mama I didn't even get to say goodbye, mama We was supposed to make it through the worst days No more cryin' on your birthday White candles, yeah, they hurts the worst way White RIP shirts hurt the worst way And all this money in my bag don't take the pain away (No, no) All this liquor to my head don't take the pain away (No, no) We wasn't lookin' for no handouts, just a getaway (No, no) All we know is all we know and that's to get away (No, no) All this money in my bag don't take the pain away (That don't take the pain away) All this liquor to my head don't take the pain away (That don't take the pain away) We wasn't lookin' for no handouts, just a getaway (Tryna get away) All we know is all we know and that's to get away (Get away) How I'm 'posed to make a change when niggas hatin' on me? How I'm 'posed to make a change when niggas preyin' on me? I thought that nigga was my dawg, he got it out for me He was just waitin' for a reason to switch sides on me Can't find a friend, I found protection in this .9, though LeBron fan, I never thought I'd need a Rondo The same niggas slept on couches in my condos Throwin' dirt all on my name in every convo And I can't even lie, mama Some nights I dream of homicide, mama The other nights I think of suicide, mama But I can't take my life, I gotta provide, mama But all this money in my bag don't take the pain away (No, no) All this liquor to my head don't take the pain away (No, no) We wasn't lookin' for no handouts, just a getaway (No, no) All we know is all we know and that's to get away (No, no) All this money in my bag don't take the pain away (That don't take the pain away) All this liquor to my head don't take the pain away (That don't take the pain away) We wasn't lookin' for no handouts, just a getaway (Tryna get away) All we know is all we know and that's to get away (Get away)