Hey, bring me my lighter back, homie
Shit, I will drink no more but back in the day
Let me take y'all back
Iso
Never did I ever go to college
But I was at the college parties getting brolic
Flexed up with a baddie too steady mobbing
Like the kids, I would just bein' honest
[?] had it poppin'
Until the nosy neighbors had to call the cops and
That night I had passed down on the park bench fucking with these hoes since Skateland lock-ins
Now I'm in your top 10, baby mama's block list
Fightin' with the top land back on your block, bitch
Glock tucked, bumpin' Pac "Me and My Bitch"
Said that I was never gonna make it, watch this
Now I got an Emmy on the wall with a gold plaque
They talkin' like we go back, nigga, we are not friends
Talkin' 'bout niggas from the O ain't poppin'
Who'd open to me? You got a song with the rock bitch, stop it
Remember when I hear rock bottom said forgive my scholarship, well shit, not hoppin'
Writin' raw raps, tryna get like Hopsin watchin' Ill Mind, Psycho
Sleepin' in my baby mom's whip
At the Tech N9ne show jumpin' through the mosh pit
Thinkin' "One day I hope blood hear my shit"
Back to St. Mary's to the kickback choppin'
Doin' uppers and downers 'til my heart said I quit
Woke up in the bathtub, gettin' back rubbed by blind bitch who steady suckin' my dick
Kinda hard to survive livin' like this
No chips checked in the treatment when I dip
Sittin' back like mission accomplished
Made it but trauma ain't left so I get
Hella high, might not sip, shot out every addict, goin' through it, I get
That's why we party the pain away
When I'm fucked up my problems all fade to gray
Now post it in the club
Addict hit back with the thugs
With a bunch of bad bitches givin' me love
If it wasn't for these drugs I'd be done
That's why we party the pain away
When I'm fucked up my problems all fade to gray
Now post it in the club
Addict hit back with the thugs
With a bunch of bad bitches givin' me love
If it wasn't for these drugs I'd be done, nana
I caught so much damage, I managed by vanishing back on my feet, but I'm still reestablishing
Big facts, it's been such a challenge, compare me to bitches who ain't got no talent
They don't understand how I'm still standin' here
Hate what I saw when passin' a mirror
I'm cracking a beer, irrational fear
Quick to switch up and these bitches are weird
My drinkin', it was just a symptom of how I was living
So livid and rigid, admitted my sin and forgiveness is something you earn
You can't win it, could die like a hero
You still be a villain
Suck it up big girls, don't cry
Boo-hoo, tough luck, that's life
You're right, my bad
Bad timing must be happy if I laugh
Can't be sad if I'm smiling
Now my smile is my secret weapon
But I'm not okay and I feel the tension
Don't want them thinking that I need attention
So I change the subject, I redirect it
I'm all alone, seeing my perspective
Laying low when I'm feeling threatened
Don't call my phone, don't leave a message
Nobody's home, I'm in a deep depression
Whiskey to whisk nightmares away
Tequila to kill it the persistent pain
I'm drowning in drinks, anything to change the way that I think and the choices I've made
Doctors say I'm cured and it got me thinking like
"Okay, but what's the difference if every single month I still fill prescriptions, do I still got a pill addiction?"
That's why we party the pain away
When I'm fucked up my problems all fade to gray
Now post it in the club
Addict hit back with the thugs
With a bunch of bad bitches givin' me love
If it wasn't for these drugs I'd be done
That's why we party the pain away
When I'm fucked up my problems all fade to gray
Now post it in the club
Addict hit back with the thugs
With a bunch of bad bitches givin' me love
If it wasn't for these drugs I'd be done, nana
