Fucked around and signed a deal and I still wasn't happy (I still wasn't happy)
Bought a bunch of brand new shit and I still wasn't happy (I still wasn't happy)
Did a bunch of shit for people they still wasn't happy (they still wasn't happy)
Thought that I beat the devil in the mirror still looking right at me
I feel I can't win
Fighting the demons within
Oh lord where should I begin?
Fuck it tell me when it ends
I lost my smile they tell me to I grin and
I don't know when I will be happy again
Yea yea yea
Imagine your dreams coming true and then ruined by people that's close to you right there
The fact we make validation by the actions made by people holding your light scares (yuh)
Satisfaction is quite scarce (yuh) look at me taking flight but you chose to do thy stairs (yuh)
Here's a quotable I'd share (what) "When your dreams come true, so do your nightmares" (yuh)
I ain't even celebrate with Tech yet (nope) and I'm already getting death threats (right)
By people I love yes yes but when I say no they express (what)
How they hate me and I'm fake please just erase me like a etch a sketch (uh huh)
Then I'll shake clean suited ain't me Judas hanging for a check to check (been)
That's how I lived 'fore they fired me took it as a sign to search for the higher me
Irony I'm dire need of fire weed driving me crazy thought I heard some tires screech (skrrrt)
No and I won't be saved by a thing dustin' these diamonds off in the rough I would be (right)
They think it's a race far as I can see I'll lose if I wait no dieting - lipozene
I should be chilling and happy as hell no one is for me they're mad at Tarrel
This music gon' sell or its back to my cell the stock on the chopper like factory sales
I really need therapy facts no retail these women don't love me they act good as hell
I made it but that made me sadder oh well if I didn't I must say I'm made at myself (yuh)
Because I
Fucked around and signed a deal and I still wasn't happy (I still wasn't happy)
Bought a bunch of brand new shit and I still wasn't happy (I still wasn't happy)
Did a bunch of shit for people they still wasn't happy (they still wasn't happy)
Thought that I beat the devil in the mirror still looking right at me
I feel I can't win
Fighting the demons within
Oh lord where should I begin?
Fuck it tell me when it ends
I lost my smile they tell me to I grin and
I don't know when I will be happy again
Yea yea yea
They calling me a legend like John rock star like Ozzy this ain't Ordinary
They told me to strive for more "the more the merry" but now all is to be in a mortuary (right)
Unfortunate? This fortune's very! Imagine your sole being is some goal reaching
And you go achieve it thinking that it'll be all Jesus living high but then that's when a rich man of lows gets buried!
Nigga my life is a movie full of Horror: scary! his may I had an epiphany I been living in dismay
And with this rage I will click bang like a chick trained I illegally open Carry
There was so many women I was supposed to marry but I'm lonely sitting writing this and smoking mari'
Holy moly Moses and Joseph Mary they want me to give em the truth why don't you dare me
Fuck but now I give a fuck less what do I think of success it sucks too much stress
Don't get enough press my kids are up next my head fucked up yes no love but dumb sex
Unless I cut checks? (what) Fuck yes! I don't have one friend fuck love I'm loveless
So love get undressed I know you want Tech so when we're done yep you won't get one text
My life is a mess these niggas suspect (right) hating on me cause I made it up out the mud bet (uh huh)
The bitches hated now they love me ones that used to be like fuck me all of this shit is Spudd Web to Judge Dread (yup)
My fans think I'm sober til I fail a drug test they think I'm perfect til I wind up dead
And I must confess that I've been de-pressed I thought fame would fix it but I'm upset
Damn
