I love saving your seat at the table Getting high, picking out names And holding your cake when you blow out the candles A text when I get off the plane I hate changes And surprises make me mad Our plans started fading When I told god and he laughed Thought I'd be holding your hand on my deathbed Never thought love would die before we did So I mourn and I cry, act like you're not alive To convince myself this is the end Never thought you could push me towards madness Now I'm Alice in the rabbit hole It's like the past the six months just hit me all at once Reaching for something to hold I hate changes Not knowing makes me insane So now I'm waiting For someone to take your place Thought I'd be holding your hand on my deathbed Never thought love would die before we did So I mourn and I cry, act like you're not alive To convince myself this is the end Where do promises go When nobody kept them? If you don't mean those words You shouldn't have said them And how should I kill All the dreams that we had? Cause I can't just forget A life I won't get back Will I be thinking of you on my death bed? What if nobody wanted me like you did? So I mourn and I cry, act like you're not alive To convince myself this the end Thought I'd be holding your hand on my death bed Never thought love would die before we did So I mourn and I cry act like you're not alive To convince myself this is the end Thought I'd be holding your hand...