Yeah, Lawd Uh huh, eh Alright, hm I got stress and animosity that's running through my Terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking I got stress and animosity that's running through my I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted I can't lie Gotta tell the truth and to be honest with you my passion faded I cannot recall the reason why I rap When my pain remains and I'm still lonely I am not famous I'm a local nigga With a loss of focus How did that happen Dropped out of school I don't need college Living with my mom and my fucking father And when they used to fight That shit would keep me up I got no sleep in my adolescence And you wonder why that motherfucker odd and now My grades slim, now my teacher wanna talk it out But what the fuck is there to speak about when every other day I'm coming home to another World War Don't nobody give a fuck about nigga or the pain that you feeling inside That you would really confide And I would never collage A different life than the one that I live And I was giving my all With everything that I did I was tryna paint a couple pictures for these kids To see what I saw When seated in my seat Cause you living in a [?] And everything is sweet You ain't even got a care in the world said it must be nice With a bunch of materials in your house that distracts from the fact that you're really all alone I tried to make sense of the way that I've been guided Scarred from my pain no real reason to hide it Lost in this world with [?] assignment And I can feel the negative energy in my silence Meditating the moment to minimalize violence Find the purpose in life I feel like it's my assignment I tried to help a handful of people with the rhyming The reality is don't nobody even get it Insinuating the flow Disintegrating my words I [?] the hearse and regulated the verse I've elevated my worth Disseminating the search Preach to the poor minds I'm nothing more than a hypocrite A theoretical lyricist literally killing it I came in the game with a dissertation You can savor the flavor The sound is amazing In love with the rhythm I give em a safe haven Damn! Lawd I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking time And I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking time Every dime All of my time it was spent Invested inside of the craft You probably couldn't even understand the effort that a nigga giving When he put it in your mind and speak it into existence And with the way I'm working for certain I need distance And I would never quit admitted you with persistence I'm giving you a vision of a hideous condition with the lyrics that I've written and song about my convictions I never stop I cannot be complacent I need to get sober my soul is sedated I've made a rendition of cynical sued em an intricate poet composed a prophecy pardon my pain is apart of the problem I pray and I ponder my peace is the departed ridiculous way I can deal with the grief Contrary do you believe you would've never beseech And they were never on the level of I I've found a way to make it clear that I was trying to survive My life in each line Describing these times My future is looking bleak And I am mentally weak I seek to find wisdom Knowledge above all nonsense I'm aware that the pain don't end I won't break up and The spirit of Amen treated the record of my past and telling em my sins Damn! Lawd!