Every stone I throw don't reach the pond
I don't see no luck in my race to god
The storm always comes when the rivers get calm
Endurance is thing that you don't get taught
And loyalty is a thing that just can't be bought
If I fail on my homies just let me rot
Above anyone is something that I am not
But life is war and just know I that I fought
Spent my last buck it went all on black
But the whole nights red and I can't call no cabs
Casino in Kentucky I'm way off the map
I left LA and I'm not coming back
My family drops tears and I do the same to
Who the fuck do I pray for if it ain't you?
Who the fuck do you pray for if it ain't me?
And if you do tell the lord it's my soul he can keep
Ain't got no closed palm
I'm ain't writing no psalms
Preacher says I'm so wrong
I'm getting close to god
My hands are idle
The bottle is my bible
Living with my eyes closed
I'm getting close to god
Let me perish if this verse don't stand true to my life
I've seen my dad on the needle and I've seen him on the pipe
I've seen my mom lock herself in her room and wanna die
I've my sister not eat a thing for months and just cry
I've seen what suicide does to a family
I've seen my grandma outlive her sons Danny
Vince, Bob, Mike, and Fred
Please tell me how it's fair that she's dying in her bed
All alone, barely talks can't even use phone
Hope she knows in her thoughts that the otherside is home
More beautiful than this life ever could be
Let all your angels take you up there delicately
And I'm fine don't you dare ever go and worry about me
You made me stronger than I ever I'd possibly be
It wasn't church or a book that brought my faith to this spot
As your soul leaves your body I feel closer to god
Ain't got no closed palm
I'm ain't writing no psalms
Preacher says I'm so wrong
I'm getting close to god
My hands are idle
The bottle is my bible
Living with my eyes closed
I'm getting close to god
