I should show more grace for all I have
and not push hope into such a hard place to live
remember the vision and the light we share
kindness and the strength to forgive
myself in the shadow of angels
myself for all this wasted play
what I really meant to do for you was come clean
what I really meant to say
I'm sorry
so sorry
It comes from staying out there way too long
then stumbling around into your room
overloaded and breaking down
these precious things that mean the world to you
I'm not hateful I'm just frustrated
I'm not evil I'm just naked dumb
into the water when I first waded
too many times, too many times I had to turn and run
any fool can get down on his knees and pray
but what are you going to do boy
when the lines are drawn down
and the connections are lost
because you can't find your way
for all the times I did not call you
and even more so for the times I did
channeling demons despite all progress
writing books that no one ever read
out of my body down in the darkness
out of my mind I cannot explain
for riding the fence on your witness
for living my life somewhere down there in between
I'm sorry
so sorry
